the real important now is what i want in my life, what i really want? After 20 years 5 months 16days..i still have no clue of anything i want...i only know what i don want..perhaps what i wish im not..one thing for sure god always have plan for u... u have to believe and strive for success.... sometime you only can link the dot backward not forward.
friendship....
I lost my bes friend..not really lost...i just lost contact....it all my fault, i should contact her more, juz think can solve anything. u hav to do it. i dont know. i juz dont know how to start conversation, i don't know what to talk...
n now to search for a new one. i don have think anyone want to be with, i have nothing to give them back. i now friendship it not only about giv and take..it more than that, but to start an new relationship,which im really suck at it. The only thing in my head right now is i have to be able to contribute something, at least something to be proud of it someone happen to be with me.
Couple.
i thought it can replace the emptiness in my life. im so wrong. i can't expect to be the same. what i learn today friend and boyfriend is to different person. boyfriend is not always can be your friend. it mayb but it better not to expect to much. this because, the way u feel toward him, and how u think about him...he can never be the same with your friend. u can't talk to ur bf the same as ur guy friend. To be honest, life as couple among single (include long distance relationship)...in other word u the only couple there in the group..other, their partner at other place...this life is suck...really suck..i don even know how to adapt with it. it getting worst when u are not in the same roof (schedule) with them. and ur partner is not heping with that. because he has the same roof with them. at the end, u left alone again.
No comments:
Post a Comment