BAD DAY

NURIN....STOP BEING DESPERATE AND LOSER.... AREN'T YOU ALREADY PATHETIC ENOUGH...

P/S: sorry if my english like shit..it just something that just come to my mind, i want to say it out front.

Kalau la rin de duit banyak....

Teringinnya rantai.....sbb cm bes ja de rantai sendiri..tapi mahal kot emas skrang..klu nak kna de RM1000 dalam tangan...mama cakap...huhu...tapi x slah kan berangan....hihi

ni yang rin berkenan...yang atas skali paling rin ska...hihi

Baucer buku 1 Malaysia (BB1M)

Dear diary,

Cam yang rin cerita semalam, RIN DAPAT BAUCER BUKU!!! RM200 lak tu...wah!!! best gila...semngat dh nak bli buku...hihi...Thank u 1 Malaysia becoz:

1. Sem ni pling byk buku yang nak kna gna...huhu...

2. duit pn xde sgt...baucer tu macam penyelamat la...huhu

Punya la baiknye berangan...engtkan de la baki RM50..bole shopping kt popular...lps klas kol 1, trus g ambk baucer kt chancellor hall....semngat ni sbb nak bli buku Wastewater Engineering...dr. shark (my dictator lecture tapi kelas dia bes) dh pesan...xde buku, jgn masuk klas.....dye sniri mengaku klas dye klas diktator...hihi...klu nak cerita sal dr shark...kna wat post baru....tapi yang awesome...dye taip x tgk keyboard! pergh! rin pn still terhegeh-hegeh cari huruf...haha....

ok2...back to topic...jadi sementara da gap 1 jam sblm klas kol 2...kdai buku jln yang sma nak g klas dr surau..so rin n yen decide nak singgah kedai buku...skali tanya2....mak ai....buku sem ni baru 3 buah dh RM213....huhuh.....terasa cm awan angan2 meletup atas kepala...huhu..cam cerita kartun....

Waste Water Engineering -RM80
Engineering Economic-RM78
RC Design Eurocode 2 -RM55
Total = RM213..huhu.

de 1 lagi subject x taw gna buku ka x? Construction Management project.

ni la gmbar buku yang rin kena bli sem ni....

sori la gmbr buruk sbb ambk pkai hp je...

In one part asa lega sbb dapat gna semua duit baucer...and duit buku tahun ni disupport..in another part...kecewa...baru berangan nak bli satu buku bes yang mahal kt popular....huhu....
anyway....x smpat belek pn baucer tu..dah abis dalam masa sejam....huhu....

*rin volunteer drop french klas...rin sowang je lepas msuk klas tu...kelly, umi, fakhrur x...mlas la nk struggle sowang2.....tawakal je la lepas ni.....huhuhuhu.......so nak tgk la lepas ni de rezeki x nak ambk mandarin or malaysian studies....kalau x..final year first t la.....kredit hour 16..huhu

ok tata...nak balut buku baru....hihi.....

Week 1 conclusion

Dear diary,

walaupun baru week 1 tapi duit dh cm air...huhuh.....mati la rin....harap2 cukup abs bulan mac t....
Sok dapat baucer buku 1 Malaysia....wakahkah!!! skanya sya...

ni just gmbaran pe rin akan dapat sok...haha...(taken from google image)


plan buku yang nak kna bli...(buat masa ni)

1. Buku wastewater engineering
2. Buku engineering economics and entrepreneurship
3. Buku RC design
4. 1 top seller book..sal life yang x mampu bli sebelum ni....i want to be inspire...:)

Sebelum cuti...plan kononnya, nak bli yang perlu ja...skali....byk beli bnda merepek dr yang kna bli....huhu....
duit2....kna start plan duit ni...klu x t x makan la rin....

dh lpa lak nak tls pa....t engt rin edit pos...hihi...

P/s: rin rindu toki....huhu....mggu ni balik jmpa toki..harap2 dye x lupa rin...huhu

After 4 month

Dear diary...

(blushing2....this post is about my happy day with him) sebelum anda berasa bosan and meluat...better anda memilih butang X kat atas untuk tutup post ni...hihi...it might sound cheezy....don't say i not warning u...hihi

Selepas dah nk dekat 3 bulan tunggu...akhirnya...kmi dapat jugak spend time sama2 hari ni... :D

Malam preparation....

start pukul 11-2pm...dasatkan!!!

Problem- nak pakai skirt and shawl....tapi tak ada baju...tak ada shawl...pendek cita xde semua...dh la x reti papa....haha..

Finally, selepas behempas pulas bersama consultant fesyen kt blik shasha...katil sha penuh baju..akhirnya...rin dapat jugak 1 choice complete set tuk baju tuk sok....credit to...shasha, ana, shera, and nabila....

Semua usaha berbaloi...because i look gorgeous in pic...ahak! btw rin pkai contact lens hari ni...hihi

The Day

gerak lmbt...dia lambat....ttido balik....x kesah la...jnji gerak...duit plak xde...sok ambk duit kt gopeng...and breakfast kt gopeng...kluar yang ready punya la semangt...tapi xde plan nk g mna...haha...selepas borak kt maple kt gopeng...akhir kmi decide plan...

kelly's castle ---> jj(tgk wyg) ----> tesco(beli bra..haha)

kelly's castle

Tempat bapek r...cntik gila...walaupn agak kosong...tapi view awesome la...fee masuk rm4 sbb holiday...kalau hari biasa with student card...rm3...rin pn tkr wedges kt sliper...gila pa nk memanjat dgn wegdes...wat skit kaki ja....kmi pn gerak....dgn ska ati...rin suh dye ambk gmbr...rin jadi model...haha...byk gmbr kmi ambk...hihi....tp nk share 3 je la...yg pling cun la...haha...(mla nk share 1 je...tp x taw nk plih yang mana...hehe)

  ni msa kt tangga depan castle

 ni kat pintu tepi castle

ni kat ats roof top castle..nmpk view keliling tmpt tu...cantik la....

*sebenarnya..kitowang smpai tgh hari buta....first, sbb kluar lmbat and plan lambt....second...rin penakut...

ni gmbr castle tu....

 ni kelly's house kt blkang kelly's castle...agk unik...de ruang yg sejuk..walaupn xde bumbung..and panas terik...design dye unik...

 ni rupa dr tpi..yg kaler coklat tu castle (caslte yang dibina gna bata n tlur itik ja..no simen n stay strong smpai skrang)..yg rendah kaler kuning tu house..

 ni yg famous kt tmpt ni pokok yg unik...rupa bear peluk pokok

ni rupa tgh tmpt tu ...tgk mata rin pn taw matahari atas kpala...

kmi jumpa de couple nk ambk gmbr wedding....cntik siot baju dia...trus asa nk kawen...hihi

pastu gerak kt jj....plan nk tgk wayang....dh 4 bulan x tgk wayang....target

1. journey to the mystery island
2. underworld

tp kecewa jam gila nak mati..n parking full yang tramat sgt..trus blah...x thn...g Ip plak..dengan harapan dapat tgk movie kt sna...kecewa jugak kt ip...xde movi tu...jadi blur..x taw nk wat pa dh...

pedicure pn x pat jgk...x snggup nk selak kain..sbb kedai tu terbuka...klu kaki cun x pe la jgk....

pastu...g mna ag ek?? dh bosan sgt kmi pn blah..engt nk g tesco...tp ttiba cm tringin nk try skali ag ja jj...pth la blik...dpt parking..masuk..sume show yg nk tgk set depan....hari ni byk kekecewaan la....1 je yg bes...cm de jdoh lak..jmpa yang lain kt jj...gerak p mkn kt zalela...makan n blik...

wlaupun kmi gdh jgk hari ni...tp it still one sweet n happy day for me...i can't believe....kmi akhirnya dapat open yang ending with happy ending...

walaupn hari ni byk yang pahit jadi....tapi diakhiri ngan senyuman bila tgk gmbr n gelak2 cm nak pecah perut dgn mmbe aka my family kt kdai mkn td....well that life...mkann sedap pn de byk rasa...ini kan pula idup... u wont be happy and enjoy our life unless u try to see everything in a sweet n good pespective....the more u try...ag byk yang akan nmpk... :D

kesimpulan..klu nk jj tgk wayang...kluar awl..tggu kt parking smpai jj bukak...haha...n plan pejalanan anda....hihi....

thnk u dear....for everything today..especially when u listening n comforting me just now...(ayat cm taik...harap awk fhm..hihi)... :) 

*yang pelik...rin x rasa x selesa sepanjang hari pn pkai baju tu...x rasa trpaksa pn..walaupn it is not me at all....i think im start to losing myself...byk pk ari ni..byk yg dh berubah tntang rin..in a good way actually bila pk blik..tp still mkin pk..makin plek...ni sume pnca sbb pa ek...mmg simpton orang nk msuk umur 20 ka...hormone rin gila ka...one this for sure....u change me....i don know how u did it..but u did...

harap semua ni akan berterusan...berubah kearah kebaikan and improve my self....

ok..kna stop dh...too long...klu bg rin tls ni...smpai bila pn x abs...hihi....ok..that it for my happy day....

nyte2...salam..tdo jom!

MY SURPRISE BIRTHDAY PARTY

Tanggal 24 january 2012..di pizza hut batu gajah...tngkat ats...

genaplah umurku....21 thun...1bulan...1 hari...(ayat skema..hihi) -credit to aira sbb tuliskan..n kotak....

thank to semua.....my beloved friends/sisters..bro...especially u....

sori tuk reaction yg cm taik...rin x reti express feeling....tapi..sumpah asa jantung berenti tuk 10 min...lps tu baru bole pk pa yang jadi....terkejut x caya..asa cm ak ni mimpi ka....ni mmg suprise tuk ak ka? ka ak ni mamai sbb lapa sgt....sbb bln jan kn...hilang selera mkan trus....sbb x leh stop senyum...hihi.....blushing gak sebenarnya..hihi....malu....n blur..dok pk...nk react cm na.....smpai kluar piza hut x taw nk react cm na...hahaha

last time potong kek...blum msuk sekolah drjah 1....yang bole pasti sbb rin x puasa ari tu..n kakak kt nursery sume x makan kek tu...rin n kawan2 ja mkn..hahaha...maklum la...besday hujung2 tahun ni biasanya bulan ramadhan...hahaha....x penah expect pn ak dapat asa besday party sendiri...sbb taw susah....

mama sendiri pn x engt...dpat wish pn 25hb...time chrismas....so asa cm my besday x de beza ngan hari2.. biasa....dah besar sikit da hp sniri....excited jgk tggu besday...sbb akn dapat kol free.....hahaha...rin kn ska cakap...hihi....tp tggu besday sbb tu la...x sngka de ag peluang tuk rin ptong kek sniri....thnk u all...

ok2...x saba dh ni...nk share hadiah rin thun ni....dh lama sgt2 rin nak ada 1 benda ni...x sngka dpat...

ALBUM CHARICE YANG ORI - "INFINITY"

kalau baca post sebelum ni...msti kowang tau...rin mmg sgt gila kt charice....

lpas ni...rin nk target beli album ni pulak.....

p/s: nk cerita jgk cm na suprise tu...tp x reti lak....n klau cita mesti sound so lame...so better it stay in the memory as one good memory that i wont forget forever....x sgka awak book floor ats juz tuk party tu...thnk u...

p/s2 : thnk also to ridzuan sbb blnja karok....hahaha...mmg dh gian dh pn..nk g sorang kt penang...tkut...hihi...

thnk u sgt2 sume....:D

1# challenge 30 day

FAIL!!!!....huhuh...T_T..x sdr langsung bunyi jam pkul 5....pling awal pn 6 lbh...which is nk dekat kol 7....

n klas dh mula....isnin sampai kamis sume start kol 8....so dh decide.....nk stat maintain bgn kol 6.30am....walaupun fail bgn kol 5....tp nk try gak bgn bgn awl...i need to take baby step....i need to take a step...i can't expect my body clock sma cm org lain...pa pn..never stop trying...klu gagal pn....puas..sbb.it least ur have put ur effort....

wish me luck everyone! Fighting!

pagi ni...engat klas pkul 8..rupanya slp..pkul 9....

okey..smpai blik blur...x taw nk wat pa pagi ni.....huhu.....

1# End of Day 1

Goal day 1..fail...


it okey, esok ada lagi.....boleh lagi.... jangan putus asa rin...


it not a very good start this morning....huhuhu...rin....cuba kuat sikit!! lawan!!
pkul 11 tolong janah setup meeting dia... hati rin x tenang langsung..fikir pasal my first official meeting untuk team heritage awareness and intrepretation...waaa!!! cuak bai!


sori janah....rin asyik nak lari ja... badan ja dekat conference room...otak dok fikir pasal kerja yang tak organize.....ok...about the setup...kerja rin just kena buat air teh ja untuk 8 orang...rin sangat2 gelabah...dah la pintu pantri tu terbuka...so orang yang tengah meeting boleh nampak rin...basuh baju kurung gelabah sgt... ttiba td jadi blank tak reti buat air teh..dengan limited gula tuk 2 jug....hahaha gila la hang nurin....padahal selalu ja buat teh kat kampung...jug besar ag...tadi boleh lak blank....taik kucing tol!! baru ku sedar...ak dh lama tak buat air tuk orang....dah berbulan....huhuh....my housewife skill dh getting worse...dah la skill yang ada pun seciput ja.....huhu...tolong la..sapa bawak rin balik rumah dia..ajar rin bagi cekap kt dapur...memalukan la....
ending up...2 jug teh yang mess up pn siap...1 manis..1 tawar....waa!! buat teh pun fail....frust! (-_-) tadi semua tu tak fikir pun sebab serabut sgt dok fikir sal meeting rin yang start dalam sejam lepas setel semua meeting janah(include kemas sikit2-time ni la rin lari) i can think straight today....asyik gelabah ja....


then pkul 2.30pm...my meeting begin...rasa gelabah yg tahap rasa mual, duduk gaya mcm orang nak terkencing....terkulat-kulat sorang2....bapek cuak!!! da sorang lagi prof mmbe my bos join the meeting...ag buat rin cuak....time ni jugak la rin baru sedar yang rin x penah handle papa sorang2 (selen presentation PPCS)...ni first time i have to present my work...which rin sniri pn blur....n tak ada sapa bole support rin sbb rin sorang ja yang handle awareness..selain bos ..naseb baek la dr mas bagitau siap2 kt prof yang rin just part time..so she don expect much from me....so i juz hav to do 1 small part from the research...part variable measurement of entrepreneurial awareness and questionnaire...list all the previous variable used....thank god.....tapi rin asyik ckp rin x fhm sgt ja dalam meeting...huhu....somthing yang rin x leh trima....rin x suka wat present research yang rin tak fhm...bagi rin..bila rin nk present papa...rin kna faham betul2 pa yang rin tgh wat...tp ni first time wat research tak fhm sgt...banyak blur.. apa pn meeting tadi bejalan lancar....rin dah taw nak fokus pa....n i have new date line...before 20hb...MY LAST DAY WORKING!!! argh..cpat je asa 4 bulan...dah nak habis dh....in fact im starting to understand research work..kind of like it a bit...hihi...so bila dah abis meeting...bapek lega gila....so start new day..organize balik semua....:) tommorrow always a new fresh start for me...


meeting venue kat meeting room kluster (tmpat janah) so tumpang la dye....pastu after decide nk balik dengan rin..rin kena la g ambk barg kat research room....so kna la drive sendiri...kereta janah... kancil auto...semua ok masa nak g..bila setel nak balik gi blik janah...time parking...rin sangkut...argh!! rin x reti control stereng kereta dye...x lepas....huhu...2,3 kali try...parking side...tkar petak pun tak masuk jugak!!! waa!! almost langgar kereta belakang...nasib baek tak ada papa....huhu..cuak gila...badan dah berpeluh dah,,baju dah basah...still x leh masuk parking...huhu...kereta dye kancil ja..parking 1 petak kereta kot....nurin fail!! lepas tu serik nak bawak kereta janah lagi dh...rin tak reti control kereta tak ada power stereng...


ok..
pa lagi jadi hari ni...ooh! rin g ambk smple contact lens free kt tesco td...kt kedai spek focus point...smple untuk 2 minggu..lepas dah ada solution nnt..bole la pakai...hihi


next plan.
hujung mggu ni cari nafkah extra..tlg buat survey untuk kwan janah..cari orang tuk jawab questionnaire.dpat la duit sikit..lepas duit minyak...tp kena g cari kasut..tak la nk selekeh...pakai selepir rin tu...dh la aiman kata tu sama ngan selipar toilet dye..sabar je la..


4-6hb depan..mayb ikot acu punya trip lagi...(suggested kuantan, pahang).yahuu!!! jalan2...I LIKE IT!!


pa lagi....?


en iran, my offmate nak kirim inai kat tok...dye sanggup bayar....bapek la...tak sangka bole trjadi promoter la jari rin rupanya...tp larat ka tok nk guling ag..tok dh x kuat sgt...n makin sibuk ngan kenduri-kendara rumah orang..hihi..


GO NURIN!!!! U CAN DO IT!!! fight toward the new rin 

MY NEW DESKTOP BACKGROUND

hope sok bole bangun awl....pkul 5am...mlm ni tdo before 12am ok?


p/s: sori la entry cm panjang nak mampus...asa blog ni dh cm my personal diari lak...:) 


ok...see u tomorrow mis w....

1# Day 1

Day 1

1. Semalam tido pukul 2am....huhu...tak boleh tido...ni mesti sebab minum nescafe petang semalam. so, pagi ni lambat lagi...macam biasa....huhu....
2. bangun 6.45am -tu pun mama bising kejut pagi2...
3. gerak pergi hantar mama- 8.05am (ada moto dgn van pulak blok pagi td...tekanan!! dah la lambat kerete kena block pulak tu...huhu....
4. beli breakfast bungkus....makan telur kt bakti...
5. masuk kerja 8.50am
6. conclusion - fail...
7. solution - tido before 12.00am tuk cukup tido 5 jam...
8. mood -  mula2 down...tapi dah semangat balik dh.....live hell, live well...you choose...

i choose live well......ok....nak start buka emel...no fb.....buat kerja....petang ni meeting pukul 2.30pm...wish me luck...my first meeting...sgt cuak....kerja x setel....huhuhu.....

IT'S ALWAYS A MATTER OF CHOICES..... ALWAYS CHOOSE THE POSITIVE SIDE OF LIFE.... <taken from a presentation given by my loved one>

nurin FIGHTING!!!

1# 30 Days challenge

Taken from here http://freestylemind.com/30-days-habit-change-waking-up-at-5am

So, starting from tomorrow, I’m going to enter a 30 days challenge where I’m going to get up at 5 am every morning. Not because I have to, but because I want to see what will happen.

Here are the rules:

1. I have to wake up at 5 am every day except thursday. I leave out thursday morning because I usually go to the gym on wednesday night, and I don’t want to stop that.
2. I can take a nap if I want to during the afternoon, however my goal is to wake up refreshed, not with sleep deprivation. Thus, the afternoon nap would be an incentive to increase productivity, not to compensate sleep

At the end of these 30 days I’ll decide wherever to continue with this new schedule or not. I’m also eager to find out if all this hype around becoming an early riser is really worth.

Dah berbulan rin baca blog freestyle mind ni... it been like forever i dream to control my own sleep hour... it seem like...my enemy it my sleep...rin tak bole control tido rin....rin senang tido and susah sangat nak bangun....it a good news that rin senang tido...so i don't having trouble sleeping...rin mampu tido walaupun tak mengantuk langsung...dasat kan...kalau tak percaya..sila la tanya member2 rin dari sekolah menengah sampai sekarang....it a nightmare!! all i have to do is lay on a bed..after 5 minutes, gudbye la....cari rin lepas 2 jam.... huhu.. (-_-) nak tambah bagi jadi lagi pelik, lepas 2 jam, rin akan jadi makhluk yg mcm tak tido setahun bila nak bangun...

Hidup rin selama ni sangat la mess up...dh bertahun rin cari jawapan why is it my life so mess up...rin selalu serabut, semua benda tak kena...semua benda salah..semua benda lupa...rin sentiasa rasa diri rin sorang2 ja yang bangang, tak guna dalam dunia ni...i feel like i am a stupid idiot failure...loser....ramai yang cakap..semua ni sebab my life style yg solat tak cukup, asyik tido......and i don't care about anything....sad but it truth....It take years to realize that it is all because of me....it all begin when i wake up late..miss everything...late for work, class, i am sleepy, tired through out the day..it even worse when i am always angry because i am tired and sleepy and i still have to do stuff everyday.

walaupun dah lama simpan harapan nak start bangun awal, sampai sekarang tak ada courage untuk start...tapai jangan judge rin yang rin tak penah buat ok! rin dh try byk kali, tapi hari esoknya ja berjaya..lusa gagal balik...huhu...T_T.....rin x cukup kuat cam orang lain.....

so today...10/01/12 12.45am rin akan start dengan goal rin yang second hari ni.....(goal 2)

my rule :

1. every morning 5.00am except sunday 6.45am...tido balik 8am-10am
2. nap: lepas zohor (max 1 hour) (miss lunch)
3. tido pukul 12.00am paling lambat

goal 1 : solat 5 waktu setiap hari + awal waktu + qada(so tiap2 kali solat = double)

So, my new morning routine

5.00am - siap sangkar my baby (toki) , iron baju untuk pergi kerja(mlm), kemas katil, ready untuk barang pergi kerja

5.30am - mandi, siap (choose to be good today, rasa syukur dengan semua yang rin dah ada)

6.00am - gmail 15 min, blog 15 min (update berjaya ker tak bangun awal pagi tu and perasaan that morning), fb 15 min

6.30am - journal (* ready meeting esok!!!!)

7.30am - gerak pergi kerja

8.00am - breakfast (prefer take away)

8.30am - start kerja (paling lambat 9am)

TARIKH GOAL 30 HARI (10/01/2012) - (11/02/2012)

wish me luck!!! HAVE FAITH IN YOURSELF NURIN!!! YOU CAN DO THIS

The new me.

For the past 20 year of my life..i get nothing..i learn nothing..i don have dream...i don know what i want.....i don care bout anything even myself.....i don feel like living... i juz certain at 1 thing, i hate my life....i hate myself...i wish i don wake up every morning....sitting don know what i want to do today...wondering who am i? and listening to all nonsense bout what i have to do...i have to maintain my pointer above 3..i have be a lecterer one day...i have to behave myself..i have to know how to act like a girl...ops..women.... yek! ...jga adek2 as im kakak sulung.... i have to smyg penuh...i have to tutup aurat....all those stuff....i don even know why i have to do all that...why i juz can be alone....n do nothing.... juz stay in my room...stay out from this world...juz buat pa yg rasa nak wat...

that me last week....

tp tlg jgn judge rin x try wat papa bout it....i read motivation book, article, juz wat pa org suh.... tgk life idup org yg success....tgk mmbe2 yg berjaya....

tp rin still x asa papa.....berubah pn kjap je....