The new me.

For the past 20 year of my life..i get nothing..i learn nothing..i don have dream...i don know what i want.....i don care bout anything even myself.....i don feel like living... i juz certain at 1 thing, i hate my life....i hate myself...i wish i don wake up every morning....sitting don know what i want to do today...wondering who am i? and listening to all nonsense bout what i have to do...i have to maintain my pointer above 3..i have be a lecterer one day...i have to behave myself..i have to know how to act like a girl...ops..women.... yek! ...jga adek2 as im kakak sulung.... i have to smyg penuh...i have to tutup aurat....all those stuff....i don even know why i have to do all that...why i juz can be alone....n do nothing.... juz stay in my room...stay out from this world...juz buat pa yg rasa nak wat...

that me last week....

tp tlg jgn judge rin x try wat papa bout it....i read motivation book, article, juz wat pa org suh.... tgk life idup org yg success....tgk mmbe2 yg berjaya....

tp rin still x asa papa.....berubah pn kjap je....