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Thursday, 26 January 2012

1# challenge 30 day

FAIL!!!!....huhuh...T_T..x sdr langsung bunyi jam pkul 5....pling awal pn 6 lbh...which is nk dekat kol 7....

n klas dh mula....isnin sampai kamis sume start kol 8....so dh decide.....nk stat maintain bgn kol 6.30am....walaupun fail bgn kol 5....tp nk try gak bgn bgn awl...i need to take baby step....i need to take a step...i can't expect my body clock sma cm org lain...pa pn..never stop trying...klu gagal pn....puas..sbb.it least ur have put ur effort....

wish me luck everyone! Fighting!

pagi ni...engat klas pkul 8..rupanya slp..pkul 9....
okey..smpai blik blur...x taw nk wat pa pagi ni.....huhu.....

Tuesday, 10 January 2012

1# End of Day 1

Goal day 1..fail...


it okey, esok ada lagi.....boleh lagi.... jangan putus asa rin...


it not a very good start this morning....huhuhu...rin....cuba kuat sikit!! lawan!!
pkul 11 tolong janah setup meeting dia... hati rin x tenang langsung..fikir pasal my first official meeting untuk team heritage awareness and intrepretation...waaa!!! cuak bai!


sori janah....rin asyik nak lari ja... badan ja dekat conference room...otak dok fikir pasal kerja yang tak organize.....ok...about the setup...kerja rin just kena buat air teh ja untuk 8 orang...rin sangat2 gelabah...dah la pintu pantri tu terbuka...so orang yang tengah meeting boleh nampak rin...basuh baju kurung gelabah sgt... ttiba td jadi blank tak reti buat air teh..dengan limited gula tuk 2 jug....hahaha gila la hang nurin....padahal selalu ja buat teh kat kampung...jug besar ag...tadi boleh lak blank....taik kucing tol!! baru ku sedar...ak dh lama tak buat air tuk orang....dah berbulan....huhuh....my housewife skill dh getting worse...dah la skill yang ada pun seciput ja.....huhu...tolong la..sapa bawak rin balik rumah dia..ajar rin bagi cekap kt dapur...memalukan la....
ending up...2 jug teh yang mess up pn siap...1 manis..1 tawar....waa!! buat teh pun fail....frust! (-_-) tadi semua tu tak fikir pun sebab serabut sgt dok fikir sal meeting rin yang start dalam sejam lepas setel semua meeting janah(include kemas sikit2-time ni la rin lari) i can think straight today....asyik gelabah ja....


then pkul 2.30pm...my meeting begin...rasa gelabah yg tahap rasa mual, duduk gaya mcm orang nak terkencing....terkulat-kulat sorang2....bapek cuak!!! da sorang lagi prof mmbe my bos join the meeting...ag buat rin cuak....time ni jugak la rin baru sedar yang rin x penah handle papa sorang2 (selen presentation PPCS)...ni first time i have to present my work...which rin sniri pn blur....n tak ada sapa bole support rin sbb rin sorang ja yang handle awareness..selain bos ..naseb baek la dr mas bagitau siap2 kt prof yang rin just part time..so she don expect much from me....so i juz hav to do 1 small part from the research...part variable measurement of entrepreneurial awareness and questionnaire...list all the previous variable used....thank god.....tapi rin asyik ckp rin x fhm sgt ja dalam meeting...huhu....somthing yang rin x leh trima....rin x suka wat present research yang rin tak fhm...bagi rin..bila rin nk present papa...rin kna faham betul2 pa yang rin tgh wat...tp ni first time wat research tak fhm sgt...banyak blur.. apa pn meeting tadi bejalan lancar....rin dah taw nak fokus pa....n i have new date line...before 20hb...MY LAST DAY WORKING!!! argh..cpat je asa 4 bulan...dah nak habis dh....in fact im starting to understand research work..kind of like it a bit...hihi...so bila dah abis meeting...bapek lega gila....so start new day..organize balik semua....:) tommorrow always a new fresh start for me...


meeting venue kat meeting room kluster (tmpat janah) so tumpang la dye....pastu after decide nk balik dengan rin..rin kena la g ambk barg kat research room....so kna la drive sendiri...kereta janah... kancil auto...semua ok masa nak g..bila setel nak balik gi blik janah...time parking...rin sangkut...argh!! rin x reti control stereng kereta dye...x lepas....huhu...2,3 kali try...parking side...tkar petak pun tak masuk jugak!!! waa!! almost langgar kereta belakang...nasib baek tak ada papa....huhu..cuak gila...badan dah berpeluh dah,,baju dah basah...still x leh masuk parking...huhu...kereta dye kancil ja..parking 1 petak kereta kot....nurin fail!! lepas tu serik nak bawak kereta janah lagi dh...rin tak reti control kereta tak ada power stereng...


ok..
pa lagi jadi hari ni...ooh! rin g ambk smple contact lens free kt tesco td...kt kedai spek focus point...smple untuk 2 minggu..lepas dah ada solution nnt..bole la pakai...hihi


next plan.
hujung mggu ni cari nafkah extra..tlg buat survey untuk kwan janah..cari orang tuk jawab questionnaire.dpat la duit sikit..lepas duit minyak...tp kena g cari kasut..tak la nk selekeh...pakai selepir rin tu...dh la aiman kata tu sama ngan selipar toilet dye..sabar je la..


4-6hb depan..mayb ikot acu punya trip lagi...(suggested kuantan, pahang).yahuu!!! jalan2...I LIKE IT!!


pa lagi....?


en iran, my offmate nak kirim inai kat tok...dye sanggup bayar....bapek la...tak sangka bole trjadi promoter la jari rin rupanya...tp larat ka tok nk guling ag..tok dh x kuat sgt...n makin sibuk ngan kenduri-kendara rumah orang..hihi..


GO NURIN!!!! U CAN DO IT!!! fight toward the new rin 




MY NEW DESKTOP BACKGROUND
hope sok bole bangun awl....pkul 5am...mlm ni tdo before 12am ok?


p/s: sori la entry cm panjang nak mampus...asa blog ni dh cm my personal diari lak...:) 


ok...see u tomorrow mis w....

Monday, 9 January 2012

1# Day 1

Day 1
  1. Semalam tido pukul 2am....huhu...tak boleh tido...ni mesti sebab minum nescafe petang semalam. so, pagi ni lambat lagi...macam biasa....huhu....
  2. bangun 6.45am -tu pun mama bising kejut pagi2...
  3. gerak pergi hantar mama- 8.05am (ada moto dgn van pulak blok pagi td...tekanan!! dah la lambat kerete kena block pulak tu...huhu....
  4. beli breakfast bungkus....makan telur kt bakti...
  5. masuk kerja 8.50am
  6. conclusion - fail...
  7. solution - tido before 12.00am tuk cukup tido 5 jam...
  8. mood -  mula2 down...tapi dah semangat balik dh.....live hell, live well...you choose...

i choose live well......ok....nak start buka emel...no fb.....buat kerja....petang ni meeting pukul 2.30pm...wish me luck...my first meeting...sgt cuak....kerja x setel....huhuhu.....

IT'S ALWAYS A MATTER OF CHOICES..... ALWAYS CHOOSE THE POSITIVE SIDE OF LIFE.... <taken from a presentation given by my loved one>

nurin FIGHTING!!!




1# 30 Days challenge

Taken from here http://freestylemind.com/30-days-habit-change-waking-up-at-5am

So, starting from tomorrow, I’m going to enter a 30 days challenge where I’m going to get up at 5 am every morning. Not because I have to, but because I want to see what will happen.

Here are the rules:

  1. I have to wake up at 5 am every day except thursday. I leave out thursday morning because I usually go to the gym on wednesday night, and I don’t want to stop that.
  2. I can take a nap if I want to during the afternoon, however my goal is to wake up refreshed, not with sleep deprivation. Thus, the afternoon nap would be an incentive to increase productivity, not to compensate sleep
At the end of these 30 days I’ll decide wherever to continue with this new schedule or not. I’m also eager to find out if all this hype around becoming an early riser is really worth.

Dah berbulan rin baca blog freestyle mind ni... it been like forever i dream to control my own sleep hour... it seem like...my enemy it my sleep...rin tak bole control tido rin....rin senang tido and susah sangat nak bangun....it a good news that rin senang tido...so i don't having trouble sleeping...rin mampu tido walaupun tak mengantuk langsung...dasat kan...kalau tak percaya..sila la tanya member2 rin dari sekolah menengah sampai sekarang....it a nightmare!! all i have to do is lay on a bed..after 5 minutes, gudbye la....cari rin lepas 2 jam.... huhu.. (-_-) nak tambah bagi jadi lagi pelik, lepas 2 jam, rin akan jadi makhluk yg mcm tak tido setahun bila nak bangun...

Hidup rin selama ni sangat la mess up...dh bertahun rin cari jawapan why is it my life so mess up...rin selalu serabut, semua benda tak kena...semua benda salah..semua benda lupa...rin sentiasa rasa diri rin sorang2 ja yang bangang, tak guna dalam dunia ni...i feel like i am a stupid idiot failure...loser....ramai yang cakap..semua ni sebab my life style yg solat tak cukup, asyik tido......and i don't care about anything....sad but it truth....It take years to realize that it is all because of me....it all begin when i wake up late..miss everything...late for work, class, i am sleepy, tired through out the day..it even worse when i am always angry because i am tired and sleepy and i still have to do stuff everyday.

walaupun dah lama simpan harapan nak start bangun awal, sampai sekarang tak ada courage untuk start...tapai jangan judge rin yang rin tak penah buat ok! rin dh try byk kali, tapi hari esoknya ja berjaya..lusa gagal balik...huhu...T_T.....rin x cukup kuat cam orang lain.....

so today...10/01/12 12.45am rin akan start dengan goal rin yang second hari ni.....(goal 2)
my rule :
  1. every morning 5.00am except sunday 6.45am...tido balik 8am-10am
  2. nap: lepas zohor (max 1 hour) (miss lunch)
  3. tido pukul 12.00am paling lambat
goal 1 : solat 5 waktu setiap hari + awal waktu + qada(so tiap2 kali solat = double)

So, my new morning routine
5.00am - siap sangkar my baby (toki) , iron baju untuk pergi kerja(mlm), kemas katil, ready untuk barang pergi kerja
5.30am - mandi, siap (choose to be good today, rasa syukur dengan semua yang rin dah ada)
6.00am - gmail 15 min, blog 15 min (update berjaya ker tak bangun awal pagi tu and perasaan that morning), fb 15 min
6.30am - journal (* ready meeting esok!!!!)
7.30am - gerak pergi kerja
8.00am - breakfast (prefer take away)
8.30am - start kerja (paling lambat 9am)

TARIKH GOAL 30 HARI (10/01/2012) - (11/02/2012)
wish me luck!!! HAVE FAITH IN YOURSELF NURIN!!! YOU CAN DO THIS





Tuesday, 3 January 2012

The new me.

For the past 20 year of my life..i get nothing..i learn nothing..i don have dream...i don know what i want.....i don care bout anything even myself.....i don feel like living... i juz certain at 1 thing, i hate my life....i hate myself...i wish i don wake up every morning....sitting don know what i want to do today...wondering who am i? and listening to all nonsense bout what i have to do...i have to maintain my pointer above 3..i have be a lecterer one day...i have to behave myself..i have to know how to act like a girl...ops..women.... yek! ...jga adek2 as im kakak sulung.... i have to smyg penuh...i have to tutup aurat....all those stuff....i don even know why i have to do all that...why i juz can be alone....n do nothing.... juz stay in my room...stay out from this world...juz buat pa yg rasa nak wat...

that me last week....
tp tlg jgn judge rin x try wat papa bout it....i read motivation book, article, juz wat pa org suh.... tgk life idup org yg success....tgk mmbe2 yg berjaya....
tp rin still x asa papa.....berubah pn kjap je....

Monday, 15 August 2011

My new silent buddy...

hi....
lma dah rasanya x update blog....byk sangat
nk cita...smpai x tercerita... (xcited ni...)
ok...where to begin????

1. my new silent buddy.

His name is toki. Mmg sangat diam tp sangat nakal. Hari ni genap la 2 mggu toki ngan rin...his is present from someone special (thnk u sgt2... (^-^) ). Toki la yg selalu menceriakn ari rin.....isi masa lapang rin...unknowingly (enth pe ak nyer bahasa...= tanpa sedar) he teach me alot of thing. he teach me to love, to have responsible, to care, tuk jadi lebih pembersih...hahaha...n most obvious....toki ajar rin menjadi seorang yg sgt penyabar.....i mean...sangat2....

TADA!!!! ni la buah ati rin....TOKI.....my little buddy...my brother...sometime my son
...hihi...

BIODATA TOKI..

Nama : Muhammad Toki bin Nurin Adlina..(credit to my roo8 for the name)
umur : Almost 2 month...masa bli sebulan lbh...tp nmpk besar.
Besday aka first day ngan rin : 2 Ogas 2011
Tempat lahir aka tempat bli : pusing (lpa nma kdai)
Makanan fav :sangat suka makan kertas, salad n makan benda manis ( jam rambutan nad,
koko cruch n cork flakes nad) walaupn sebenarnya x leh makan.
Personaliti
-sangat x suka bila angkat...tp mnja
-bli nk manja nnt dye dtg jilat...or dtg naek ats riba...sangat comel..
-bila mara msa x bagi kuar cage...akn gigit...x kuat la.
-sangt x suka mandi...abs rin kna cadar...tp sbb sayang thn je la..huhu
-suka gigit n makan kotak n paper...
-sangt suka kencing ats katil....sangt tension...otoke...x taw dh nk wat cm na....
-x leh makan yg byk n bercampur2...t cirit birit...dh 2 kali since dgn rin...sgt rsau...huhu - Naseb baek de pil chi kit teun (pil merawat sakit perut )..alhamdulillah...
-sangat ska duduk bwh meja nad (my roo8)
-pe lagi....sangat ska slide n lari dlm blik....mentang2 la lantai licin...
-he finally know im his family...sbb everytime asa x secure..he come to me...thnk u my dear
-td masa bring ats lantai dgn toki...i realizing something..i don know what will happen to me if i lost him....eventhough baru 2 week..asa lma sgt n asa dekat sgt...
ni bila dye gosok idung dye gna both hand...sgt cute...sbb 2 slalu cair...

ni first time bawak dye jln2 kt luar....(me and toki)

this his home...where he poo2 n wei2...beside my bed..toki2~~~

ni time rehat lepas penat2 lari kt dlm blik..

Thank to all my house8 and especially my roo8 nad sbb support rin jga toki....downg pn slalu maen ngan toki lps stress study...
other story bout toki...bole la klik kt my roo8 blog..

sorry pnjg la post kli ni...ska like-like my liver la kan...hihi..my world...hihi
lps ni byk lagi cita toki akan menyusul....

Thursday, 16 June 2011